The Hot and Cold Game

For the last several years, so much of my brain space has been occupied with finding my purpose in life. And despite running into so many road blocks along the way, always trusting that there is a reason for everything that happens has helped guide me throughout my journey.

Over the years I've been constantly asking myself the following questions: What is my highest truth? Where is my highest good? How to I express my greatest love? In my attempts to find these answers, I've often felt like I've been playing the "hot and cold" game with God. It's as if every time I've had a thought or have made a move regarding my future, God has been telling me "lukewarm, cold, colder, FREEZING." Or, "warm, warmer, hot, hotter, BURNING!"

For instance, two years ago when I decided I wanted to channel my empathetic nature into a new career, God led me down a path far enough for me to confirm my suspicions that helping people is most certainly what I love to do. You're getting warm... warmer. In my pursuit to become a teacher a few years ago, I realized just how hard I'm capable of working, and how dedicated and committed I am to my goals. Hot, hotter! But then God halted me in my tracks just before I was about to become a teacher. Cold... FREEZING! Despite the disappointment of working so hard only to eventually fail, I chose to be thankful for the lessons I learned during the process, and to trust that I would be steered in a new direction.

And, in fact, becoming a mentor two years ago made me realize that working one on one with someone is much more up my alley than working with many people at the same time, which would have made me miserable as a teacher. Lukewarm... warm. I've had time in the last two years to come to terms with the fact that I'm an introvert, and therefore I don't do well under pressure, and that I'm better when I'm the one in control and mapping out what is going to happen next. Warmer... And I realized, with regards to pursuing a new career, how much I'm not willing to sacrifice regarding the things that matter most to me in life: family, friends, and fitness. Getting warmer... hot!

After so much contemplation and fostering the courage to squelch my fears, I decided to act on my civil liberty to pursue happiness by pursuing a career that would represent my biggest passion - fitness. Hotter... And after passing my personal training exam this past weekend, I know that personal training is what I'm meant to do. That fitness is my purpose. Hot!... BURNING! 

God gave me a gift, and although it took me a while to unwrap, I'm eternally grateful for it and I can't wait to get in the gym and share it with my clients.